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For when I am weak, then I am strong...
As winter is finally winding down and the feel of the spring is finally in the air, I can’t help but think of the changing seasons.
6 years ago I was living life not caring about tomorrow or how the decisions of that day could change everything.
I lived life for myself, not caring about how the decisions I made could hurt others or affect their life. Nor did I care if it did or not. I made decisions that would follow be for the rest of my life, choices I’d never be able to take back, and severed relationships with my family, the ones that’d matter forever.
For a long time, I called myself unlucky and kept asking why it took me so long to let God change my heart and work through me… but now that I look back, I can see the grace and love He was pouring out on me the whole time.
It took 6 years of sculpting and molding my heart to the way it is now and I can feel Him still trying to chip off the hardened places in my heart. But six years ago this time, I was sitting down in Bryan’s office telling him about how I had gotten an MIP at school and wanted to get emancipated from my parents and yesterday I sat down with Him and shared future plans we have for our beautiful church and the movement that’s happening… In that moment, I finally felt the chills of the winter dying down and the warmth of the spring creeping down my spine.
Winter was coming down to an end. Through all these years of falling and scraping my knees, I feel so much joy and peace in my heart knowing that no matter how big of a hill, how crazy of a thunder storm, how rocky the roads get, I can say “I life my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.”
KONY. MAKE HIM KNOWN.
I know this video seems long, but watch it. Please.
On January 14th, a group of 13 awesome people from the OSU EPIC crew took off for San Francisco, California. We were heading down to a nation wide EPIC conference that takes place in San Francisco once a year.
Say Hi to my group!
We took off for what turned out to be a 12 hour journey taking breaks here and there and of course stopping for some…
Yesssssssssssssssssss. In n Out Deliciousness.
I also went last year as a freshmen and I had an awesome time with the group that I went with that time as well.
As fun as it’d be to blog about all of our crazy adventures of late night bubble tea, evangelizing in the streets of downtown San Fran, and getting to meet
BRANDON HEATH!!!!!!!!!!
I have a more deeper thought that’s been stirring my heart since that trip. For this year’s conference, they took up the theme of Awakening. The speaker’s name was Brandon Ahu, and man… can I just say that it’s times like this where God shows Himself to me by using these speakers to speak truth directly into my heart?
The thing that he hit on right off the bat was this thought of a sleepwalking generation. That we have become this sleepwalking generation of people that are oblivious to reality who are physically functioning but mentally, we’re almost in a dream like state. This thought was something that I had never heard of before but completely just resonated within me…
I have been a part of a lot of different ministries for the past few years. From being a middle school group leader at my church…
to being a leader at a huge northwest retreat…
Leading small groups for OSU’s EPIC…
And leading worship…
You’d look at that and say “man she really does live for God!” but in reality, I’ve been sleepwalking through all these activities… I had gotten so tangled up with the thought of serving the Lord that I completely forgot the part about loving the Lord. I forgot that because I love God I should do this I do all these things because I love the Lord and it should all just pour out from that Love.
“One of the biggest tragedies are if we were to listen and understand the Gospel, and we still chose not to live it out.” -Brandon Ahu
Needless to say, I was AWAKENED. (<— over kill? lol) But really, I was. I always thought if I read my bible everyday, went to bible study every week, went to church every Sunday, led bible study, led worship, prayed all the time, and do all the bible things, then the love, and the discipline, and the faith would come with it. But I realized that unless I wake up to the truth of the GOSPEL, everything that I did and said was meaningless.
“I have become its servant by the commission God gave me to present to you the word of God in its fullness— the mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the Lord’s people. To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” -Colossians 1:25-27.
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